Why.

do we mourn over the loss of our family? I just don't get it. I mean, we all get there right? We all will get to that point in time when it is our time to leave. This might sound really cheesy but I still think instead of being upset over death. Let's just celebrate the time we had with them and we should feel fortunate that we even got to spend time with them. Take what they have always wanted and what they taught you and make the world better in honor of them.

Sorry. But this year I've experienced loss and like people given so many years to live. I just feel like it's the world telling me to grow up and realize life isn't forever. You have one chance and all. I mean I've gone to 2 funerals, I've known 7 people in my family that have gotten labels on their life's length now. And like. I just don't know why it's all happening to me. IDK. This is just like how  I feel about all of it. I'm sad yet glad that I have to put up with all of it this year. I'm actually getting stronger, realizing what I believe in, getting to know my family more, learning & growing as a person. So in a way I'm kinda okay with it. I think, now I'm okay with the whole idea of it. Of course I'm scared and all but it's like, dogs get like 10-18 years. Bugs get 1-25 days. Humans. We get 50-100 years. Sometimes more! And just. yea. okay I'm going to stop now. kay.

You might think I'm crazy, you might think I have issues. Well, I hate to break it to you. But I don't give crap. Because if you do get off my profile. I'm done with dealing with "friends" that only tear me down. And that only make me hate myself more than I already do.

Wow. This journal has a bunch of different subjects in one journal. It's like an all in one! If you read all this.